Saturday, February 18, 2017

Don't Mind If I Do!

"Be Yourself" - Harrison Storm

Be yourself when you're holding on 
Be yourself one day 
Be yourself when you're holding on 
Be yourself one day 

Take on the colors on
And fire fight the winter storms
Be yourself, don't hide your name
If you call it about, don't be afraid

Be yourself when you're holding on
Be yourself one day
Won't cry...

Take on the colors on
And fire fight the winter storms
Be yourself, don't hide your name
If you call it about, don't be afraid
Won't cry...

Monday, February 06, 2017

Hello, February!

We meet again, I see.  All anniversaries deserve to marked.  This one, I will mark with gratitude.

B:
  Thank you for showing me that I truly have business acumen.

RL:  Thank you for showing me an alternative side of working and the pluses and minuses.  You were close to a keeper...but election years and ACA, yo!  You'll be acquired in short order.

SFM:  That was a useful ride on many levels: Thank you!  You pushed me out of my comfort zone [always a good thing!]   You disregarded things that I had been sensitive to...to the point that I stopped seeing them myself.  This was an invaluable course correction.  You also helped me make a major shift on evaluating potential work environments.  You really are a good guy.  Work on that drama index, though.

         Random but important to S:  Commit to one thought and intention per sentence. 


Timid?  No. Overwhelmed by your nonstop manufacturing of drama?  Yes.  Learned helplessness?  No.  Reality?  Yes.  A great deal took place, but, no, I did not create my own chaos and self defeat.  I swam for shore.  Every single time.


BR:  Yes, please!  I am asking.  Imploring, even.  Universe, shine kindly on me, please.  I keep getting back up.  Whoever gets hired for this position is going to be one lucky so and so.  I would like that so and so to be me.


In general: I am thankful for standing my ground in a way that made the reasons obvious.  There was no need for confrontation past pointing it out.  I am thankful for having learned to be healthfully protective of myself.  I am thankful for MM. I have not been so pain and anxiety free in years.

So...real me, now me, new me: what is next?  I think that MM is a non-returnable turning point.  I just have not felt so content from moment to moment in so long.   I'm no longer desperate for the the next step; I am eager.  Who knew it would take me four years to get back to me?

Friday, January 20, 2017

Outgoing message

*sniff*

The Reality of Life




Know that you are loved.

The World Needs People


Who cannot be bought;
Whose word is their bond;
Who put character above wealth;
Who possess opinions and a will;
Who are larger than their vocations;
Who do not hesitate to take chances;
Who do not loose their individuality in a crowd;
Who will be as honest in small things as in great things;
Who will make no compromise with wrong;
Whose ambitions are not confined to their own selfish desires;
Who do not believe that shrewdness, cunning and hardheadedness are the best qualities for winning success;
Who are not ashamed or afraid to stand for the truth when it is unpopular;
Who can say "no" with emphasis, although the rest of the world says "yes".
- Ted W. Engstrom, Motivation to Last a Lifetime